Letter To My Next...

Dear Next,

I wont label you boyfriend, lover, or friend just yet, because I've learned to live with the least amount of expectations is key. I'm not sure how we'll meet, I don't know how long we'll be together, but there's just a few things I'd like you to know.

I'm a simple individual, yet so complex. It's the little things that matter to me, but I have a tendency to make a big deal out of them. I will more then likely be stand-offish at first, please do not let this deter you. If you truly think I'm worth it, you need to prove that you're worth it to me. I would love to say I will never compare you to anyone in my past, but that would be a lie. The context in which I do so will be harmless nonetheless. You see, like most females Ive been hurt before, so I use all past life lessons as a path to better my future. Now sir, I can sometimes get besides myself. I have a tendency to take on more then I can handle, but please stop me. Remind me that I'm only human and when I feel like I can't go on, remind me that you're there to carry me until I'm replenished. No worries, you can always be assured that if you ever fall, I'll be the first to catch you.

I wont lie, I love the finer things in life, but they're obtainment from you does not motivate or impress me. Be aware that I'm quite comfortable with providing for myself; I seek a loving mate, not a father. Yes, I'm a spoiled brat, but I've done quite well maintaining this trait on my own. I'm not looking for a sponsor, I'd like to go 50/50 on this .. ALL TRUST. You don't have to take me out on every date or always show up with a dozen of roses when I'm mad, but I ask that you do one thing, that you always show me the same respect that you would want me to show you. We don't need to speak everyday, I will understand that we are both hopefully working to further our careers, but I'd appreciate an occasional sappy txt/bbm/call/email every once in a while, telling me that you're thinking of me.  If I'm serious about you, you'll more then likely be my last thought before bed and the first when I wake up. I sometimes may let you know this, please do not consider me corny, I'm a hopeless romantic that believes talk is cheap, how are you to know if I don't show you? No worries, I will not be one of those females who thinks within the first few months that this could possibly be my "forever". I understand that things change, people evolve, and nothing is ever promised. So, lets live in the moments of right now. 

If you don't mind, please hold my hand/arm when walking down the street (unless its summer). If we're watching a scary movie, already know that I'm a punk, so hold me tight please. Whenever possible, grab my waist from behind, pull me close and whisper in my ear, kiss my neck and when the time is right you can even add those 3 words (NO rush). Lets agree to disagree, but also to discuss everything and to never go to bed mad. Please know that my family is my everything and that I do realize that we both had lives before one another. So with that in mind, lets agree to maintain weekly/monthly outings with our separate groups of friends, but if I ask you to come play Taboo on Couples Night.. Just grin and say, "Yes, Baby". Sir if anything, remember that birthdays mean the world to me. We don't have to do anything at all, but just make sure you're near and that you keep a smile on my face. Honesty is the best and ONLY policy. Communication is key, along with consistency. If you prove to lack in any of the three previously mentioned traits, please be aware that my Relationship A.D.D. will kick in. It's pretty hard to get me back after we've entered this phase. 

I'm not perfect, but I'm me.. "Flaws and All". Im a work in progress in every sense of the term, but there is a piece of me that would like to possibly grow with you. I'm not sure when you'll come into my life or if it's even anytime soon, but I just thought I'd let you get to know a little bit about me, so you could prepare. I'm not saying it will be easy, but I promise.. It will be worth it.

Sincerely,

Kellz

...but you can call me Lil Mama ;o)